English Subtitle by: Manvagtoo
My Mom...
She...
She does not understand my dreams.
The things I see.
The things I gonna have to.
I had a dream the other night.
I dreamt I was at school.
I was the only one there.
But I knew I was supposed to be there.
Like I was waiting for everyone to show up.
So, I just waited.
And the more I waited, the more I liked it.
I didn't mind being by myself.
Not for a while at least.
Then I started to wonder if maybe I had died.
Like this was heaven.
And I did not feel tired.
Sometimes when you are by yourself
you feel tired.
And I saw this girl.
She was floating.
And she floated right past me.
She did not even look at me.
And it was not that big of a deal.
Cause it was like she was a part of it.
Like she belong there.
And maybe I didn't.
The girls in the woods.
We must go to the woods. Oh Lord.
She'll take us to heaven. The girls in the woods.
Oh Lord. Take us to heaven. The girls in the woods.
It starts as a dream.
We were together.
Maybe in the woods
Or a bedroom or a restaurant.
I feel you staring.
But it's like, we can't look at each other.
And maybe, we don't have to.
Cause, we are always so close.
So close to be in perfect.
And the nothingness that surrounds us
keeps me deaf.
Keeps you awake.
Turns everything around us to black.
I hear people talk of death and dying.
This is... my school.
And inside my locker.
This is Travis.
We believe in heaven.
Dear God. Put us, Travis and myself, to heaven.
He manage more than anything.
If we die together, we will never be apart.
We only know each other.
And our heaven.
Your heaven.
The part I want you to give it to us.
Oh, Lord.
Please. Let it happen.
Please, forgive me for our wariness.
Forgive me.
I'm going under.
To get above.
To get above you.
They can't help me... us boys.
But we won't try and scare anymore.
Maybe we won't... even know what we' re doing.
It would feel like we're freeded.
Or serene.
Above the clouds
Looking down on everyone.
On perfect moments
above the oceans
towns and cities.
You... you just may not feel us.
Cause we' re be holding our breath.
And it might even stop the wind.
We're going to heaven.
I know it, because I have been there before.
And you were with me.
But it's not like the heaven you see on television.
Or hear on the radio.
It's a round creation.
There is no priests, or gods, or saints.
Nothing you've seen before.
Are you there? Hello.
It's me. Are you there?
Don't leave me alone.
This... girl.
Yeah?
How do we... find her?
I'm not sure.
She must be out here.
Somewhere.
Yeah... maybe.
At least it's better than being at school.
Yeah. Definitely better.
Do you like school?
I don't know.
Sometimes I guess.
You think there's school in heaven?
No. There's no way.
Yeah?
Yeah.
Cool.
Your bounds are perfect
I don't even have to touch you to know that.
They just are.
And I know, you'll never get old.
That we never get old together.
Keep you out of hospitals.
Away from doctors.
And crashing cars, and police-stations.
Cause I just know we will be protected. And never scared.
Never in pain. Except when you look at me,
stabbing me. Your eyes make me bleed.
And hopefully together, loosing breath.
It's only a matter of time.
Just stand
The lightning above.
Beyond the trees.
A rope came down.
What is this? Is this it? I don't know.
We've got to climb it.
Is this heaven?
I... I don't know.
I think. I've been here before.
I saw a flower.
It did not belong to me.
It was not... for me.
It was... the girl.
She was there.
Often in distance.
Jesus...
She is...
Beautiful.
What's yet to hear?
No.
Not yet.
Everything can be something nice safe.
Where empty. When there is nobody else around.
It's like your own world. Your own perfect world.
I wish you were tell me about your perfect plan.
Cause I really don't wanna leave it in a note.
Maybe it could be a picture. Or a map under a pillow, behind the bed.
And it would take forever before anyone could find it.
And just when everyone is starting to forget, it will hit them.
Jealous boys and girls. Other boys in our lockers.
They get told about us. I will be together for all eternity.
And they all die away. Living first, for ever unhappy.
Not like us. Nothing like us.
We've got to get back there. But if that's heaven, we have to die for each.
We can't kill ourselves. Yeah.
You can't go to heaven if you kill yourself. I think it is in the bible.
What if it was an accident? What if we drowned?
Like an accidental journey? Yeah!
A total accident.
She just stares
in to me.
I don't really know
I can't let her know... Travis and I..
Our plan... It's bigger than the both of us.
Do you think that really there is a heaven?
I found pictures of us in my youth.
Places I swear, we have never been before.
If I hold my breath for over ten minutes,
I can do it. I can set myself free.
Please God. Please God. Let us be together. I'll see you
If I put my hand here. Will it make your heartbeat faster?
I see your prayer... (repeatedly)
Please God, please God. (repeatedly)
I know we can get back there. I just know it.
Are you in my head. You just can't be in my head. I see your prayer. Are you real? Is this real?
Please God, please God (repeatedly)
You're in my head. You can't be just in my head. So close to perfect.
It's going. Right now?
Right now?
Yeah!
Uh...
What do you want me to say?
Any last words?
Uh... mmm
Say something.
I really don't have anything to say.
Why are you doing this? Why not?
It is the right thing to do.
The only thing to do.
You're now.
You look different in this.
Really? How? I don't know.
You just.. I wanna say.
I don't regret what we are about to do, The right thing,
Yeah, We got our own place, we don't bothered by anyone.
Nothing could be better.
Any last words? I'm close to God
I am close to God, close to you.
I know you watch me. And that you fall on me.
This course is better. Near you.
I'm dead. Does the train thinks that I am dead?
I know you're dead,
but we can be dead together. Can we?
Dead together.
We're gonna do it. We gonna drown.
Away from it all. A perfect accident.
One last bush. I am the last one bush.
Years in the water. I'll be under.
Under your youthful wings and fake smiles.
And forced tears. The way we drowned.
I am the boy drowned. Drowning to all of it.
I have to do it alone That we never have to talk about this.
And maybe you forget about me. One lost boy.
Who used to hide in the shade. And under trees.
And blankets. So lonely.
It makes me too tired to live. And your grace is fading.
The goal too. I be high above
A floating boy. Forget me
I beg it you. Forget me
You Godly. There is nobody else so pure.